In therapy we connected with a young frozen part, maybe ten or so. She couldn’t move and T asked her to gently touch the bear she was holding. The part held anger and referred to herself as “the one that causes trouble”. T asked the part if she could her uncross her feet (I was lying down). The part agreed but as T went to do this, the part grimaced in pain and said “be careful, don’t break them”. T said she wouldn’t do that, but the part insisted “we’ve never moved our legs before, we may not be able to walk”. T managed to move the feet as gently as she could but the part experienced much pain.
The feelings of anger then moved into sadness and stupidity. I’m unsure why the part felt stupid. T mentioned it might be because her brain wasn’t sure what to do and sometimes that might cause you to feel like you don’t know how to do something or can’t do something. I’m not sure, it’s all a bit fuzzy.
Not really sure what to make of this. Recently I’ve asked ChatGPT to psychoanalyse my sessions. Here’s what it says:
It sounds like your therapy session involved working with a dissociative part, often encountered in therapies like Internal Family Systems (IFS) or trauma-focused therapy. The “young frozen part” likely represents a segment of your psyche that became “stuck” or fixated at a young age due to traumatic or distressing experiences. Here are some psychoanalytic observations:
- Representation of the Young Part: The part that feels like a ten-year-old suggests a part of your psyche that may have stopped developing normally at around that age, likely due to a traumatic or deeply upsetting event. This part is frozen in time, encapsulating the emotions, fears, and beliefs from that period.
- Embodiment of Anger and Self-Perception: The part’s identification as “the one that causes trouble” could reflect feelings of guilt, shame, or self-blame that are often seen in trauma survivors. It’s a manifestation of internalized negative beliefs about oneself.
- Physical Manifestation of Emotional Pain: The pain experienced when trying to move suggests a psychosomatic response. This can be common in trauma where emotional pain is so intense that it manifests physically, especially in parts of the body that might be associated with the traumatic memory.
- Fear of Movement or Change: The fear expressed by the part about moving and potentially not being able to walk might symbolize a fear of change, progression, or facing the trauma. Movement here could be a metaphor for moving forward in life or therapy.
- Shift from Anger to Sadness and Feeling Stupid: This transition of emotions can indicate the complexity of processing trauma. Anger might initially serve as a protective emotion, masking deeper feelings of sadness, vulnerability, and confusion. The feeling of stupidity might arise from a sense of helplessness or a lack of understanding about how to process or deal with these deep-seated emotions.
- Therapist’s Role and Response: The therapist’s gentle approach and reassurance could be aiming to provide a corrective emotional experience. It’s an opportunity for the part (and thus, for you) to experience care, safety, and understanding that it might not have received at the time of the original trauma.
Remember, this analysis is quite general and based on the limited context provided. Personal insights and interpretations can significantly differ, and it’s crucial to explore these themes further with your therapist, who knows your history and therapeutic process in detail.
Quite accurate and helpful for me to refer to when reflecting later. Thanks ChatGPT.