I went to today’s hypnosis with an intention; to work on my relationship with money as it is attributed to memories around child prostitution. Although I have come along way with money over the past couple of years in particular (thank you Barefoot Investor book), I still find that I have feelings of fear around it. It’s like I want to get rid of it. It feels like I shouldn’t be holding on to it, I don’t want it and I don’t deserve it. At the session today it also came out that getting money was associated with getting hurt. After we talked and set the scene, I lay on the table thing and the hypnosis woman D put a weighted blanket on me. She asked the parts who had fears / feelings around money to join in if they wanted. Then she put me into trance, which is nothing scary, I started in my safe house meeting / lounge room, then went down five stairs to a room underneath. The room was really pretty and safe and she asked me to invite some healers / people of strength around, so I had Jesus and an angel and a lion there. Then she had the parts who were involved join and there were 12 of them and she asked how old they were and their ages ranged from 3 to 12, maybe 13. In the middle of the room was a large fire, a safe one and she had me put all the feelings I had around money and the prostitution in a box and to breathe in then out and on the out breath to push out the crap. My body started to shake and get all weird and then I had to turn over as the pain was hurting so much and she asked me where it’s hurting and I said between my legs. She asked me something like what did it look like or if it looked like an object what was it and I said a knife. She then began pulling it out and praying over me or something and I was in a lot of pain. But eventually the memory just shook through me and I was okay. And then a part asked what do we do with the box and she laughed nicely because she could see we were okay. She said to let the light take it, just let it disappear because it’s not my stuff. And that was it. When we debriefed she said she felt like she had all this strength of light behind her helping her shift this stuff out of me. She got emotional when she told me that. It made me feel nice and protected.
I came home and went for a half marathon run. I felt good. Lighter. More focused. Determined.