Full circle

I feel so deeply worthless at the moment. I work hard to achieve things because I enjoy it and it helps build my esteem. But it seems like nothing I do is ever good enough or the feeling of shame and not being worthy returns full circle.

Stop trying. Lord, I give up.

I said to her, let go, He will catch you. Yet I’m afraid to stand down. I am exhausted.

2 thoughts on “Full circle

  1. I am so sorry. Would it help to know that the feeling of worthlessness does not come from you but from cult programing? They wanted you to feel worthless because that allowed them to have more control. Left to yourself, you would not feel that way.

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