Following on from my creative exploration of “commitment”, I took the last two words in my list of unconscious feelings and enacted them as follows:
The keyword was crazy. I performed a movement and took a photograph. Then I wrote the description “when I commit, I get hurt. I get hit, I can’t breathe. I’m trapped.”
Then I moved on to my final word “safety.”
After “performing” a movement of the word safety, I added to it, writing: love, protection, held, peace. I wrote: “commitment is safety. Is safety possible? Do I deserve it? No-one is safe. I am safe now.”
I felt that I circled back in some ways to one of the first words I wrote “peace.” Next step, according to therapist, is to now further cluster the words and explore them in more detail. Stay tuned….